I am absolutely depleted. The emotional toll of this break up is draining, but now I have to process my Mother actually having cancer! I mean come on, how much can one person take. I am exhausted, hurt lonely, confused, and just lost. I feel so alone. I just hurt. I knew in recovery you were going to feel the ups and downs, but ouch. I just can't seem to catch a break.
I know, that I should put things in perspective. I could have it worst, but my Mama. Why does she have to go through this? She has gone through enough. Taking on so much, being the provider for many. I know I shouldn't future trip but, I am praying that her test come back clean. I am hurt by this breakup, I couldn't imagine losing my mother. I just want to talk to him, I know that this is a bad thing. Nothing will come of it. No matter, what happens to me or my family he wouldn't give a rat's ass.
Foolish me, for thinking that I found the one. That I was special. I am just so so defeated. God, I am looking for your guidance, I am looking for just a moment of peace. I just need a break.
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- Eugene C Barnes III
- I'm just throwing my thoughts into the black hole we know as the internet. I'm a Baltimore native who calls Dallas my home. My thoughts may seem to be all over the place, but don't worry, we will get to the destination.
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